Don't Worry, Be Happy

Today I prayed. I try to pray everyday, but today I prayed specifically to be happy. I'm sick of being unhappy, because I'm just a happy person. After I prayed I opened my scriptures to Mosiah 2. There were a lot of things that were really good in that chapter, but verse 17 stuck out to me. It said: "And behold, I tell you these things that ye may learn wisdom; that ye may learn that when ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the service of your God."
I prayed again and asked for help to find people to serve today. I am happy now, because I was able to serve others, and I was not thinking about me and myself. The things I did weren't even big, but little things like listening to someone cry, or asking them how their day was. I gained a greater love for the people I did these little service things for.
I also just listened to the CES fireside that was broadcasted yesterday. It was amazing. Pres Uchtdorf said a lot of things that needed to be heard by me, and I'm sure by a lot of other people. I think everyone should listen to it. The church is true. I want to be a good person, and live by the commandments of God so I can return to him. I'm going to work harder to serve others, and be happy!

Slow Me Down

This song sung by Emmy Rossum pretty much explains my life. I feel like I'm running in too many directions and I can't stop. If you don't want to hearing whining I'd suggest not reading this post. First off, why is motivation such a hard thing to find? I'm struggling hardcore with finding any ounce of motivation to do anything. I don't want to practice, do homework, go to work, clean, or get out of bed. I want to sit on my butt and stare at the wall. All day. Every day. I'm pathetic. Basically I have a badittude (bad attitude) about everything. I'm trying hard to be positive about stuff, but sometimes I guess you just have to have a craptastic week. I know I'm not alone though because I've talked to a lot of my friends who are experiencing the exact same thing. I think it's the weather. It's cold. It snowed. It's almost the end of the semester. Stress is building like crazy. I'm homesick, and on the verge of tears most of the time. And no, it's not PMS, and I sure hope I'm not pregnant. It's weird being homesick because I've never experienced it before. Last year was all good and dandy because I was out doing my own thing, without my parents, but after being home for the summer and seeing how much my siblings changed while I was gone I'm having a hard time being away from them. I don't like how everytime I see my brother he's taller, or his voice is lower. My sisters get prettier, and more mature. I don't like it one bit. *breathing*
Ok, I think I'm done. For right now at least. Life really is good. I have great friends, and am surrounded by good people that I love. Church was really good today, and a lot of things were said that I needed to hear. I'm really trying to become spiritually a better person so I can better handle crappy weeks. I need to do better at reading my scriptures and praying, and I know after I put my effort into things everything will go better. I love the church, it's true.
The end.

Friday Fun

After a long hard week I figure everyone needs a good laugh. I bolded my favorites.

Here's a list of children's books that never made it to print:
1. You Are Different and That's Bad
2. The Boy Who Died From Eating All His Vegetables
3. Dad's New Wife Robert
4. Fun four-letter Words to Know and Share
5. Hammers, Screwdrivers and Scissors: An I-Can-Do-It Book
6. The Kids' Guide to Hitchhiking
7. Kathy (Kjersti) Was So Bad Her Mom Stopped Loving Her
8. Curious George and the High-Voltage Fence
9. All Cats Go to Hell
10. The Little Sissy Who Snitched
11. Some Kittens Can Fly
12. That's it, I'm Putting You Up for Adoption
13. Grandpa Gets a Casket
14. The Magic World Inside the Abandoned Refrigerator
15. Garfield Gets Feline Leukemia
16. The Pop-Up Book of Human Anatomy
17. Strangers Have the Best Candy
18. Whining, Kicking and Crying to Get Your Way
19. You Were an Accident
20. Things Rich Kids Have, But You Never Will
21. Pop! Goes The Hamster...And Other Great Microwave Games
22. The Man in the Moon Is Actually Satan
23. Your Nightmares Are Real
24. Where Would You Like to Be Buried?
25. Eggs, Toilet Paper, and Your School
26. Why Can't Mr. Fork and Ms. Electrical Outlet Be Friends?
27. Places Where Mommy and Daddy Hide Neat Things
28. Daddy Drinks Because You Cry
29. Sharing is For Chumps [NEW!]
30. The F-Word, a Great Attention Getter [NEW!]
31. Farting in Public, a First Amendment Right [NEW!]
32. Daddy's Secret Friend, Trixie [NEW!]
33. Mommy's Secret Friend, Ralph [NEW!]


haha I still laugh everytime I read them. I hope you enjoyed.

I Have Been Blessed Part II

I got a job!!! I knew my CNA class wasn't for nothing. I actually took a CNA class at the beginning of summer so I could get a job in Cedar City. It's almost impossible to get a job here, especially with the budget cuts on campus. I'm excited to start working again. I hate having any sort of free time because I feel like I'm wasting time. (Since I have a butt load of free time because I only have 18 credits and am in only 6 different ensembles) I did just make my life a lot harder though because I will be working graveyard shifts. I figure if I work Thursday night from 9:30-5:30 then I can sleep 4ish hours before my 10am class on Friday and then sleep Friday afternoon until I go to work again Friday night, sleep Saturday, work the Saturday noc, sleep a little before church, and then sleep again after church....then, if all goes well I'll be caught up on sleep for the next school week..... (oh, geez it sounds crazy when I type it out.)
So my job is as a CNA at Kolob Regional Care & Rehab. I miss my job at the nursing home in Spanish Fork, and I can't wait to start at this one, even thought it's a lot bigger then any nursing home I've worked in before. I also have another little part time job. On Tuesday afternoons I drive to Parowan to teach 5 little violin students. They're really cute, and it's a good experience for me to be teaching more students.
Why all the work? I'm trying to earn money for a trip to Italy in March with one of the choirs I'm in at school. If I don't spend any money and eat very little (I need to do that anyway because I'm getting fat.) then I should be able to make it to Italy. It only costs more then a whole semester of school. haha

Little update on my love life. Exciting I know. I went on a date tonight. It was fun. I laughed a lot. (I suggest seeing the Complete Works of William Shakespeare, it's very funny) But, ............ (always the big But).............. why do I only get asked out by boys/men/whatever I would probably never be really interested in? Plus he's 30...I'm only 19. I'm still a baby. (I just have to keep telling myself "It was just a date, I'm freaking not getting married.")
But, he asked me out again already! AH What am I supposed say? I don't want to be mean, but I don't want to be too nice, and lead anything on. I dislike this game.

I Have Been Blessed

I knew life was going to well. As soon as things are going smoothly you know it's going to change. Not that I'm complaining. I like suffering sometimes. Maybe suffering is too strong of a word in this situation, but whatever. None the less, I've been blessed. (hehe that rhymes) so,........ instead I'm complaining, and telling pointless stories of self pity I'm going to brag about my cute siblings and roommates instead.

On the left is my sister Jenny on her first day of high school. I can't believe she's in high school. The other two girls are her friends Caroline and Kyrsten. Jenny is amazing at the violin, and has taught herself the viola and cello. She's an amazing forward in soccer, and is amazing at whatever else she decides to be good at. We secretly like each other, but pretend most of the time not to. I think it's because our personalities are so freaking similar. Yes, freaking. So for the record Jenny, since I know you don't read this I'll say I love you. :) which is not a lie.

This is Cammy. She's skinny, 3 inches taller then me, and way cuter. A little obsessed with her hair, make-up and clothes. She's also really good at the cello. It might have something to do with her actually practicing. She sits first chair cello in Chamber Orchestra. She's really involved with orchestra, choir, PTSA, and NHS at school. Oh yeah, and she's also part of the Springville Art Royalty. I can't believe she'll graduate in May. It's freaking crazy. Also, let me talk about the skinny part. Why is it that she can eat whatever she wants, sit on her butt, and still stay skinny? Life is not fair. That's all I have to say. Here's what I have to say about my cute little muffin tops, and big boobs. A man likes more to handle. (At least that's what I've heard, not that I would know, seeing as I have no man.)

Cammy I'm glad we get along better, and are better friends now that we're older. :) I love you.
Nathan. What a turbo. I probably miss him the most. He is hilarious. I don't know any other 13 year old kid that can sing like he can. He got up every morning this summer at 7 to play tennis. Dedicated kid. He plays that bass too. I love him, even with this ridiculous face. I love bugging him about the girls he thinks are cute. It's so funny to watch him blush. I went home last weekend, and almost cried when I saw him because he's as tall as I am now, even though that's not very tall. His neck got a little bit longer, his voice a little deeper, and I always have to ask him how his armpit hair is coming along. :) Although I don't like this puberty thing with him. Not one bit.
I don't know which picture he looks more like himself in.

Now for my roommates. I lived with Briana and Challis last year, and Hali, and Jessica were in my ward last year so I knew them already too.

left to right is Challis , Hali, Bri, Jessica, and me.
These pictures were all taken in our front and back yard. We live in the coolest house/bed and breakfast ever. We have two other roommates that live in the basement, but we don't see much of them. I need to get to know them better.

Look at all these amazing people I have been blessed with.

Life is Good

Can I just tell you how good life is. Yesterday was probably one of the most fun days I've had in college so far.It was so random and fun. (This song that is playing right now is one that we kept breaking out in everywhere we went.) I picked up two of my new best friends Geneil, and Annie, at their dorms. (They're both RA's). We had to go grocery shopping for our Opus choir party. We went to Smith's and eventually we eventually got separated from Geneil. Annie and I got a text at the same time that said "Marco," and then I automatically yelled "Polo" pretty darn loud. This older guy that was stocking the produce asked if we had lost somebody and we replied yes. He said with a lot of enthusiasm let's go call her name over the intercom. He went back to a room and then we heard "Polo" over the intercom at Smith's. I don't know why it was so funny. This guy was just so excited aobut it, he said if we couldn't find her soon we were welcome to yell "Marco" over the intercom. So that was our adventure at Smith's. We then continued by making a stop at Whittlesticks, Cedar Music (where I can spend too much time and money...), and then to Great Harvest for lunch. Geneil insisted I try a Tuscan Chicken Panini, which was worth it. We ended up staying there for an hour and a half just talking. I love random conversations where you get to know someone so much better, and respect and love them that much more.

Anyway, I had to return a book to the Cedar City Library so we headed there. We had just been there a few minutes when Geneil said "There's a bat in here!" Annie and I were like yeah whatever, and the next thing I knew, there was a bat flying at my head in the library! haha oh my gosh, I screamed. I can say that's the first time I've ever screamed in any library...We spent the next few minutes dodging the bat, and telling the ladies at the front desk there was a bat in their library. Super hilarious, but maybe you need to be there. I don't know. Then we ended up in the children's section of library, and for a whole hour we looked for all our favorite childhood books. We ended up checking out 19 books to read that night. We seriously were so excited, we were squealing like 5 year olds. I called my mom, and thanked her for reading to me when I was little. Now I appreciate it, after being around all those books.

We went to our Opus party, ate good food, watched Little Mermaid, and had some laughs. But the fun hadn't even begun yet. We headed back to my house to begin our storybook reading. We read The Little Mouse The Red Ripe Strawberry and the Big Hungry Bear, Owen, Mrs. Peachtree's Bicycle. Miss Nelson is Missing, Blueberries for Sal, Ox-Cart Man, Little Black Sambo, The Napping House, The Velveteen Rabbit, Fortunately, and Heckedy Peg. Oh the memories. :) I hope some of those books sound familiar. I'm so excited to someday read to my kids.

After we finished reading it was like 1:30 in the morning, and everytime Geneil, and Annie got up to leave we started laughing again, or talking about a whole new random thing. We had the TS's (Tired Sillies) all night. 4am rolled around and they finally decided it was time to go home for real. I love days like this. The ones where your stomach and cheeks hurt from laughing so hard. I'm also grateful for the new great friends I have made this year, and the good friendships we have already created, and that is why life is good.

What Is Love?

I cried about a freaking boy today. Oh, and the other night in bed. Are you kidding me. I hardly ever cry anymore, and I waste time crying over a boy?! I don't even know why. I've only been in "love" with this kid for like five years. I haven't even seen him for four months, and I still can't "get over him." What is my problem? Actually what's his problem? He's a wuss. That's what. He's always making up excuses as to why we can't be together. He's scared of commitment. Scared of getting hurt and way to scared to even kiss me. Ahhhh! That's the worst part. How many times could we have kissed? Too many to count. Wuss. His excuse everytime is that it wouldn't be perfect enough. I'm sorry my friend, but my first kiss sucked, and almost everyone's does so it doesn't even matter. I really should just go and lay a big one on him, slap him, and then walk off. Yes, that would be nice. Oh wait, I can't because he lives on the other side of the country now.
Ok....now that I'm done being bitter/frustrated. What is love? Seriously. It's such a simple concept, but it's super confusing. Why does is have to be like that. It's this stupid "game" that single people are expected to play if they ever want to find love. Now I'm not looking to get married anytime soon, but being "single" sucks. It doesn't matter how many friends you have, you always feel pretty freaking lonely. (It does help that the ratio of girls to guys in Cedar is 3:1, and most of the time that one boy is married, has a girlfriend, is a jerk, or who knows what else. Boys really are like parking spots. All the good ones are taken, and all the rest are handicapped.) This was one of the first things I learned when I came to college. Girls get married young so they're not alone, and older single adults get really bitter and onrey towards young married people, or couples in general. (Personally I think it's because they're not getting any action, but who am I to judge, neither am I. My friends are right, I get onrey when I have "built up sexual tension.") haha funny side story, one time our student teacher for choir was writing onrey on the whiteboard, and she accidently wrote horny. It was super funny. We never let her live that one down. (She apparently wasn't getting action either.)
I'm done. It's out of my system. No more crying over boys. No more pity parties for being single. Here are three positive things of the weekend. 1.I went to Lake Powell yesterday! Amazing/awesome/everything Lake Powell should be...until the boat breaks down. Wake boarding and cliff jumping was really fun too. I'll post pictures eventually. I had forgotten how beautiful Lake Powell nights are sleeping out on the beach under all the stars, and then to wake up to some of the most gorgeous sunrises every. *sigh* Now really I'm in love with that. Now I'll just have to stop being sore from wake boarding and swimming. My car didn't even break down going over Cedar mountain! wahoo!!!! 2. I made baked potatoes, pork, and steamed cabbage, onions, broccoli, and carrots for dinner with chocolate pudding for desert. (But I ate all alone, once again because I don't have a boyfriend...oops I thought I was done complaining.) 3. I got e-mails from my two best guy friends in the whole world that are on their missions. One in Samara Russia, the other in the Dominican Republic. I'm so excited for them to grow and learn in the gospel. Ok, that's three. I will post something positive this week.