Another semester has come and gone. I cannot believe that I will be a senior in the fall. Although I have two more years left... This semester has been filled with decisions. Things that I know I can only turn to the Lord for answers. It's funny how you stress and stress about things until you just finally pray about it, and then things just fall into place if you're doing what you're supposed to be doing. Burdens are literally lifted. Nothing HUGE really even happened this semester, but I still learned so much about myself. About relationships with friends and roommates and family. About the scriptures, repentance, the atonement, true joy, and sorrow. I am grateful for the calling of visiting teaching. I worked hard to visit teach this semester, and I got to know and love two amazing girls. I tried to listen and learn from the subtle whisperings of the Holy Ghost. I tried to serve a little more, and think about me a little less. I learned that I was able to serve a lot more when I was being more obedient to the commandments. This is something that I already knew about, but it takes refining. and more refining. and more refining. Unfortunately I am not perfect. I will always be learning.
I learned a lot in school this semester. I loved my nutrition class. I love the body and this class made it even more apparent that God is an absolute genius. The body is such a complex thing. It blows my mind. Every tiny little nutrient we need for our body, God put it on earth. We can survive and thrive on every natural thing. I love it. I feel like I was able to improve a lot in voice lessons. I passed my gateway and piano proficiency, and I got a decent GPA. I tried to do a better job at not being crazy. I tried to balance work, school, and play. I'm learning more and more every semester.
This summer I was SUPPOSED to stay in Cedar, SUPPOSED to work full time, SUPPOSED to teach violin, SUPPOSED to stay in my house, and SUPPOSED to have all the money in the world so I can play. Sometimes things don't work out. I will be at home. HOPEFULLY working part time. HOPEFULLY playing some, and HOPEFULLY renew friendships with all my dear friends up north. I know that the Lord wants me up north this summer. I'm excited to see what He has in store for me. It may just be that I wasn't SUPPOSED to be in Cedar. I guess I'll have to wait and see.
This fall is going to bring about major changes. Changes in myself. Changes in the music department, roommates, ward, and everything around me. Isn't it ironic that the only consistent thing we have in our lives is change. I need to learn how to better embrace it and love it.
